The View From My Window

The leaves seem to be greener these days thanks to the rain.

I can even spot some flowers on the branch.

Yet, i prefer the trees at night, when the street lights gently shine upon the leaves with a hint of yellowish tint. 

It reminds me of autumn. That particular season, that particular romance which entices and flirts sensually in full power.

This week has been crazy. I mean, when is there a particular day when my day is not crashed with drama? I wish my life can be a lil' bit more normal like the rest. 

And i've realised something, which i'm not going to tell because it will prompt you guys to dial the ambulance to send me to the IMH. Which in addition will 'cause you guys to make up your mind on that after i tell you the whole story.

So, bottom line is, when in doubt, do it the Bella's ways or at least trust my very own instinct.

"I need your love,

 Like night

 needs morning."

 Kylie Minogue, Come Into My World

Instinct

I asked myself on whether i'm alright, because you can't be the one i adore.

Daion told me i should take it as a compliment since he might has seen me as a competitor... Really?

Somehow i wish that that is not the case,
so the grip will be looser.
Somehow, i wish i have not erased the messages.
Now, i have nothing to look upon.
Now, i have nothing to taste upon.

This is crazy; They asked me on how can i be so sure? But my instinct has never failed me. I know that i know and i recognised the destined one.

Yet, what can i do? What can i really do? I have always come in second in everything that i do, in everything that i have. If my life is pulling a joke on me, then all i can say is 'Well Done'. It started out as funny, then a little jinxed and ended with a misery.



"I really thought i was okay,
i really thought i was just fine.
But when i woke up this time.
There is nothing that could take me back to sleep,
to take you off my mind... this time."

Rachael Yamagata, Over and over