Don't Take Me Back To The Start.

I have never been this hardworking in my whole life, not even for my 'O' level. Even when i told myself i wanted to go into one of the best Junior College in Singapore. So i guess my resolve is not that strong at that point of time.

But this is so different. Ever since i got into Lasalle, i felt like i'm in this mix of summer and military camp. I had such a great time with all of my classmates (Well, the 'all' part is a tad exaggerated) and then came all of this crazy, extremely packed deadlines that i barely manage to breath.

Sometimes, i just sat there staring at my lecturers when they gave (yet another) projects at us. I just zonked out. I just want to laugh and pissed my lecturers for pissing me as well.

However, i find myself kind of enjoying all these works. Partly because i never knew i could go this far and partly also because i love what i'm doing now albeit not all.

Stress? Yes i am. But i don't want to run away again. I'm tired of it. I don't want to repeat what i'm doing two years ago when all those anxieties mounted up to my head. At least i want to run with purpose in mind, not like some headless chickens getting nowhere at it.

I'm not calling those who run away are weak. I think everyone just needs to get their priorities right.

And, i'm slowly picking myself up from all those 'bruises' few months ago. Still building that shell bits by bits, though it may not as strong as before, i just don't want to be a crab without a shell.

Ph: Hedi Slimane

"Nobody said it was easy.

It's such a shame for us to part.

Nobody said it was easy.

No one ever said it would be this hard."

Coldplay, Scientist.

Young Love

I wasn't particularly doing anything just now. However, something caught my eyes as i scrolled down my instant messenger's contacts. I was surprised to see some of my friends putting up the pictures of their the other half on their display picture.

Certainly, time has passed. 

And love is not a subject where me and my friends would blush or hush at anymore. In fact, we're so open about it that it covered both love and lust.

I used to think that love is just like a game. It depends on how well you play in it. If you lose, get out of the ring and cry or suck on a lollipop or whatever. Definitely not a playground for the fainthearted. You gotta be tough and resilient to be able to maintain and play the game well, if you want to taste the sweet victory.

However, i guess i have a harsh take on love a few years back.

Because, i realised that just like in a game, how well it is carried out isn't solely depends on you alone. It also depends on the one you play with which in this case will be your Tom, Dick or Harry. You need an honest and reliable partner to play with. Someone who won't cheat and able to keep you interested for a heck of a long time in the game.

Of course, i'm not encouraging all of you to go out and play around. Ugh. Well, i hope everyone will be able to find that right person to be with. 

Yet, who am i to philosophise such stuff?

After all, love is too profound even for me.

By Hedi Slimane

"Tonight maybe we're gonna run.

 Dreaming of the Osaka sun.

 Oh~ Oh~

 Dreaming of when the morning comes."

 Coldplay, Lovers In Japan (Osaka Sun Mix)

Brown

I'm falling sick.

Last night, i was struck with runny nose and now i could feel the heat surging in my body, especially in my head.

How nice~ Considering this is the most important period for me since i have projects (and uncompleted ones) need to be handed in.

Please, let me go through this and you, flu can strike me during holiday period. I need to move out of this pathetic joint and i mean the place that i'm staying in. I can't even speak on the phone without worrying that i might disturb the rest. 

How i wish for a warm cup of honey lemon tea accompanied by a warm embrace and a pair of arresting brown gaze.

A wishful kind of thinking.

By Hedi Slimane

"Oh yeah, your skin and bones.

 Turn into something beautiful.

 And you know for you,

 i'd bleed myself dry.

 For you, i'd bleed myself dry."

 Coldplay, Yellow

Here's My Version Of It.

We have certainly come a long way.

The year 2008 has hosted some big events like The Olympics where Michael Phelps made history with 8 gold medals ( Nope, not the one where he dates a cocktail waitress from Las Vegas )

The year 2008 also handed the world a poison apple, namely The Recession.

Oh well, whether it is good or bad, 2008 is getting older and no prize for guessing how old it is going to be in few days.

I realised lots of blogger tend to reflect on what movies, news, musics or fashion that are memorable in 2008 at around this point of time. So i thought, why not jump on the bandwagon and write about something similar?

New Year is coming so going with the flow is pardoned.

However, rather than ranting on and on about everything i'd rather focus on music instead ( 2008 has been a blah year for movies ) Give me music anytime and anywhere of the day and i'll still dig it.

So here's the album that i really love in 2008. I know there's only three, i'm too lazy. ( A prove that my 2008 resolution did not work out )

First, my most beloved Rachael Yamagata's Elephants... Teeth Sinking Into Heart. 

I dare say that no one can sing the way she do. She can be happy and yet sing a song that break your heart to pieces. That rich and emotional voices of her are hard to come by. 

Next is a band that is quirky and will always sound like themselves, The Cardigans. If you think they're a one hit wonder then this compilation will definitely prove you wrong. 

They're one of the most under rated band ever! Of course unless you're a fan like me, you should get your hand on the limited edition of The Cardigans Best Of that comes in two CDs.

Last but not least, it is Coldplay. No, they have nothing to do with the Global Warming or climate or whatever. Viva La Vida definitely do them justice from their previous X&Y which sounded a lot like their 2nd album A Rush Of Blood To The Head.

This album is that good, explaining it is really not enough to do justice. 'Nuff said.

And then, there are a few artists that i can't wait for them to release their new albums.

I know not all of you understand Bjork but she don't care about it anyway. She's unpretentious and totally original. Her latest Volta didn't really do her justice, she can produce an album that made the critics gave her 5/5 ratings. So i'm waiting with bated breath to this one.

You guys might never heard of her or her latest album, Saltbreakers but she's a freaking brilliant singer songwriter. Her lyrics and music work so well together that it conjure images in your head. She's Laura Veirs and she knew how to speak chinese. How cool is that?

Now, this is one band that i'll listen to when i'm in the mood of doing something mischievous. The Sounds latest album Dying To Say This To You is fun and cheeky in a non-cheap way. Plus, the vocalist Maja Ivarsson is ambitious, aiming to be " the best female vocalist around... or at least this century". 

I wonder how long will it take for them to come out with new album 'cause my mischiefs are getting impatient.

Now, say the word Yeah Yeah Yeahs! Its not that hard to remember their name, isn't it? This band know how to have fun with their music, though i don't really dig some of their songs from Show Your Bones but i must say they are really good and i can't wait for their new album.

"1234, tell me that you love me more" Does it ring any bell to you? Feist's latest album The Reminder is probably one of the most successful in Indie-Rock music scene. Plus, the Reminder was voted the 80th in the list of The 100 greatest Indie-Rock album ever by American music magazine, Blender. Now, that's one feisty lady ( Fierce is so over used, yucks )

"Here's my version of it,

 eternal whirlwind.

 I have fostered since childhood."

 Bjork, Hope