I Want To Hear You Coo..

Lately, i've been listening to this song on repeat until i fell asleep. Secretly wishing i would have a psychedelic dream where i would melt onto the earth, swimming from wall to wall, stalking the person that i love so obsessively..

Bottom line, i just get the kind of energy, a jubilation, inspiration where i feel like i could write a thousand poems and never get tired of it.

A Way To Start The Day

These days, i felt so unmotivated and dusty like an old shelf. Seems like the adrenaline that i'm injecting myself with is not enough. I've been getting weird emotions lately and its surging inside me like some weird, psychotic songs.

I seriously don't know what to do with this energy where the thoughts involved ran along the line of pushing someone i dislike down the stairs.

But i reckoned too much things going on during day would not be good for my dreams in the night. Two days ago, i dreamed that i fell on the road because of 'something' and cried as if i'm the source of Niagra Falls.

Ph: Hedi Slimane

I seriously can't wait for Chinese New Year. I need to feel safe again and i only get that when i'm with my family.

"And when it lands,

will my eyes be closed

or open?"

Bjork, Hyper Ballad.

Look at it, i know it's true.

I've not been getting enough sleep lately due to school works but when i do, i hope my sleep would not be dreamless. Hopefully, i'll getting lots of lucid dreams where i can do whatever i want.

Ph: Greg Harris

The weirder it is the better so that when i woke up, i wouldn't have to crack my brain trying to remember what i've dreamt about.

"I'm gonna take your eyes,

use them as a seed.

Grow up a big tree

on the balcony."

CSS, Believe Achieve.

Bad Dream

Time seem to pass by so slowly.

I'm dreading each day, afraid that i have too much time to think. Brooding on stuffs that don't really matter to me at all.

I think the reality of the day has began to sieve into my dreams. It made me dreamt of stuffs that are so surreal yet so realistic.

I don't mind having dreams in my sleep. In fact, i love it... but these days my dreams demand a lot from me, from my mind, my emotions.

Like how i dreamt that my grandpa was struck with disease so horrible that made me can't even bear to raise my eyes to look at him. Daion told me i need to tell someone about mishaps that i dreamt in order to reverse the effects.

I guess i need to break free from all of these superstitions. I fear because i doubt and i doubt 'cause i don't believe in myself. 

Oh God~ Please protect all of my loved ones, i pray. Amen.

By Hedi Slimane

"I wake up, its a bad dream.

 No one on my side.

 I was fighting but i just feel too tired,

 to be fighting.

 Guess i'm not the fighting kind."

 Keane, Bad Dream.

Wanderlust

Last night, i dreamt of beloved Bjork! YAY I guess its because i've been listening to 'Unison' the whole time last night. She's right, we should 'unite tonight'.

In the dream, i shouted for her name and she threw her arms to hug me. She gave me two pecks on my cheek and even allow me to kiss her on her lips! Well, i hope i could get some of her talents from that kiss =)

Now, i have no doubts on what album i'm going to buy next month when i get my pay.

Today was fairly busy at work. Looks like i have other things to do other than taking pictures in my workplace, haha =p

"I find

 an accurate copy,

 a blueprint,

 of the pleasure in me."

 Bjork, Pagan poetry

We're made of dreams?

I'm kind of lazy to write anything here except for the fact that i was FINED for JAYWALKING!

Oh well, every indonesian is born to jaywalk so i guess $20 fine is not as bad as Daion's $200 fine, haha.

Anyway, A.I.A night has been fun, though it take quite sometime for me to loosen up.

Thanks guys, the two of you are like two in the millions who can stand my irritable temper, eccentric behaviour, unneccessary wailings, consistent whining and gag-inducing questions.

A few nights ago, i dreamt that i actually murdered someone.

I can't remember whether i was instructed or forced to do it but i know i was definitely filled with anger. Worse, it was on his wedding day. I carried an axe in my hand, went in front of him and gave him two slashes on his face. I can't see who is it though.

The next thing i know, i was told to murder two more guys and both happened to be on their wedding days as well. I ran away this time round, after realising that i have actually taken someone else lifes.


"I follow with my eyes 'til they crash,
i wonder what my body would sound like,
slamming against those rocks."

Bjork, Hyper Ballad

Chardonnay, i love you especially today.

Last night, before i went to bed, i made a small little prayer, a small little request to the Lord.

"Lord, if tonight i were to have a dream. Won't you be so kind to take me somewhere? A plain or something, where it is so vast and empty, so that i could scream and cry at my heart content. Thank you Lord. Amen."

Well, it didn't came true but still He gave me something before i really fell asleep.

In a densely populated country like Singapore, I CAN'T SHOUT AND SCREAM TO MY HEART CONTENT!

I think i need chardonnay. Won't you be with me tonight? I love you especially today, the redder you are, the better it is.

"Rose, i love you especially today.

  Rose, i love your delicate way."

  The Feeling, Rose