A Box Of Promises

I'm pretty much patient with most of stuffs ( or at least a few ). 

However, i can't stand those people who leave you hanging up on air, without giving you any sense of closure at all.

Its VERY annoying when they led you somewhere full with promises and then went away without any words. Promises are very appealing but make sure you open it before taking, because you might just find it empty.

I can't be bothered anymore, if you continue to be like that, go ahead and carve that stone of happiness alone.

Ph: Hedi Slimane

"Memory comes when memory's old.

 I am never the first to know.

 Following the stream up north.

 Where do people like us float."

 Fever ray, Keep The Streets Empty For Me.

Something Arousing, Something Sizzling

Let loose your mind that meant to be imagining and arousing your inner self.

Devon Aoki for Nippon Vogue

Kerry Degman for Pop Magazine

Fernando Schnerocke

Ryan Vigilant's test shoot

Liu Wen for Flair

Anne V for Acne Paper Folio

Carmen Kass for Vogue Espana

Vladimir Ivanov for L'Officiel Hommes

Garrett Neff and Julia Stegner for Hercules Magazine

"Oh~ Won't you come,

 come, come into my world.

 Won't you lift me up,

 up, high upon your love."

 Kylie Minogue, Come Into My World

The Ones that we go back to.

My assessment is just two days away and though my housemate, Linda told me that i looked very calm, i can assure you that i felt as if someone is going to throw me into the lion's den.

So many things to be done and sometimes i just lost focus.

In the end, i went to get myself a couple cans of Redbull and boy, i was so energised that even when i tried to sleep, my eyes would open automatically.

Yesterday, i just felt very uncomfortable. I need to talk to someone but to who? Who can really understand and spare their time to talk to me even for a while? So, i smsed my mum and she called me.

You know, its funny how growing up as a teenager, i always thought that my parents don't understand me at all and furthermore i was studying overseas, its just makes the whole thing worse. We don't really talk except for a couple exchange of sms or when i go back to my hometown during the holiday.

So, the decision to talk to my mum last night was a pretty weird and bold, if i may add. However, i'm glad to be able to talk to her. She still know me well after all these years, she pointed out my weaknesses and encouraged me. 

Don't hesitate to speak to your parents when you're feeling down. After all, they are the one that we always go back to.

By Hedi Slimane

"But you pick me up and brush me off,

 and tell me i'm okay.

 Sometimes thats just what we need,

 to get us through the day."

 Sarah MacLachlan, Push

He said, "You know?" I replied,"Of course, silly."

Earlier today, i saw my own reflection in the glass blinked back at me..

I'm like. Do it again.

Obviously, you guys are going to dismissed me as being too stressed out.

Yea.. i am..

Maybe i'm homesick, filled with void or just simply dying to be in someone's embrace. It reminds me of Amelie from Le Fabuleux Destin d'Amelie Poulain. 

We are not crazy, sometimes we are just too imaginative. When you're alone most of the time, imagination is the only refuge we tend to seek.

Actually, life needs to be a lil' simple and pure at times.

Take some time and look hard into her eyes, maybe Amelie would just blink back at you ;)

"í sayr lon

 í sayr lon won fur yo won

 í sayr lon

 í sayr lon won fur yo won"

 Sigur Ros, Untitled #4

You're the place i call home.

To Hold

Miles and miles across

the globe.

Baby, you know

i can't make it alone.

You have the face,

i've always wanted to hold.

And now,

i'm going back home,

back to you.

If my words meant to hurt,

you'll not be on my mind.

Now, please don't go.

Stay for a while,

i have to heal the wound.

Where my hands could touch,

it'll seek to please.

Time is just

something we're not used to.

Long nights need

each other's warmth desperately.

And i think of you, 

how you'll smile for me.

Julius Kensan

( Sentimental Freak )

Curses!

April has not been the best month for the past few years. So i'm definitely going to black list it next year. 

Sometimes when you're frustrated, you just don't know what your mind is feeding you with. I suddenly see myself hitting people standing beside me in the subway, shouting the F word loudly in the bathroom (FYI, i've never said the F word before) and getting back at those people that i've had enough tolerating with.

Of course. those are just images conjured up by my mind to fit my current mood. However, i'd love to decline it please. Its not doing me any favor. 

I'm so homesick all of sudden. I miss my dad. We rarely talk but i'd really want to see him and my mum now.

Alright, lets stop here because i can't help myself to think of my lovely parents while my mind is cursing all of the bastards and the unfortunate events going around currently.

By Hedi Slimane

"But a desperate fear flows

 through my blood.

 That our dead loves

 buried beneath the mud."

  The White Lies, To Lose My Life

The Modern Hercules

Amidst the rising trend of 'boys who are girls who like girls to be boys' for the models in the fashion industry, Brian Shimansky's latest editorial spread in Hercules magazine shot by Giampaolo Sgura proves that having broodingly handsome good look and chiseled hot bod will still remain as the most coveted of them all.

Instant classic, no?

"Oh my God, its so hot.

 Oh my God, its so cold.

 Oh my God, i'm so messed up.

 I don't know which way to go."

 CSS, Jager Yoga

Will Minds Regret

Next To You

Its alright.

Two words i always say.

To the you, it follows.

To myself, it scowls.

I'm letting myself go.

Losing myself, gaining yourself.

A sweet compromise

that others despise.

Tell the rest.

The way i'm draining you dry,

curling you up in my blood.

Drinking from miles away.

I dare not sleep,

without you tugged by my side.

Deafening silence

is all i hear and sing.

Pale ruby red lips

gasping for each other's kiss.

Julius Kensan

( Sentimental Freak )

"Let's grow old together

 and die at the same time.

 Let's grow old together

 and die at the same time."

 The White Lies, To lose My Life.

Fool Me, Fool You

I know April's Fool is already a few days back.

But, i wonder if you know. I'd love it, if everyday is April's Fool. Maybe it will teach me to take things less seriously.

Like maybe my lecturer will tell me, "Ju, you failed the foundation year, see you next semester again."

And before my jaw completely got detached and fell off, my lecturer will add, "Fooled you."

Or this particular friend of mine who say, "You looked like a cross breed of Mongolian Horse and Smurf." 

Wait, seriously, i can't help not to take that latter comment less seriously.

Oh well, i need to get over this semester, get my life back once again and forget about the plan about ruining someone's life.

By Hedi Slimane

"Baby you've got me thinking,

 about the things i left behind.

 A suitcase in Helsinki.

 Full of things i want to set on fire."

 CSS, Left Behind.